Oh Man.. Days Like Today I Wish He Were HereSo the past few days have been great and then this morning I woke up knowing today was going to suck! Don't ya hate that? Lol. Well I need to vent soo...
I actually have a condition called Endometriosis that causes a lot of pain and problems with my hormones and female stuff and have been being treated with a drug that put me into early menopause temporarily. Well... David and I talked about it a couple months back and decided when my time for another dose was up I wasn't going to get it because we were wanting to try and have a baby. (although I'm only 23 my doctors have suggested if I want children I need to do so soon due to my problem since it eventually causes infertility and I already have so much trouble with it) We both feel ready even though we aren't married, we know we want to be together so... Yeah... Anyhow, my medicine is now gone from my system or trying to be so my hormones are RAGING!! I'm fine and laughing one minute then crying my eyes out the next and getting so angry. I hate feeling that way when I know there is no real reason I'm upset. It just can't be stopped!
And then there is work. I live in a tourist town and At this time of year we have older people coming down to the south for the winter and some of them are so mean!!! (no offense to ANYONE in the north lol we have mean people here too I just tend to not have them come into where I work) anyhow.. Since my hormones are crazy I keep getting upset with customers that are rude to me for no reason other than they can do it and I have to smile and take it. So that on top of nausea and headaches from the hormone changes I am more than fed up. All I want is to have him here to hold me and tell me it's all going to be alright but I haven't been able to even text him. ;( it just sucks.
*BUT during the typing of this little rant I got a text message from my love!! He is out of the woods from SERE a day earlier than expected!! He is sore and lost 17 pounds in the last week but I get a phone call in a bit and I can't wait!!! I'm a thousand times happier then I was at the beginning of this letter lol*
I don't get to be near him but I atleast now have contact. =) thank you for listening... Or reading rather.
Brittyleigh12 22-25, F 3 Responses 0 Sep 29, 2011