Alone.I swear im bipolar or something. My husband has been gone almost a month and im still in shock i guess you could say. . . I found a job at a daycare about 2weeks ago. I worked 3days and i quit; it was horrible. I found a job at cvs and start sunday! Until recently i have been fine. I mean i should be used to him being gone by now right?! this is our second deployment and he hasnt even been back a year. I have been having mental breakdowns and im not even a cryer. My best friend is in the army but stationed here in GA. So we see each other often but not enough. She is my main support system and i feel so alone. I know this is what i wanted to come home to be around family for this deployment but its not at all what i was expecting. This is probably the hardest deployment we have been through emotionally together. I mean the last one was hard....really hard. It was a combat deployment so he was constantly outside the wire. I got multiple phone calls from the fro saying things people hope to never have to hear. I feel like a 80y/o in a 20y/o body. After living together for 10months and growing together the military life never gets easier...it gets harder. I cant even begin to imagine what he is going through if i feel like this.
just needed something to talk to i know this makes no sense really but ya know. <3
michellecars2010 18-21, F 6 Responses 0 Mar 23, 2012