Missing You...as AlwaysI'm not gonna lie, this sucks.
I love my bf, and i love that he chose to do something so amazing with his life, but sometimes i can't help but feel like the whole bit sucks. Usually i get by pretty well without thinking too much about him being away because I'm busy with school or hanging with friends/family, but today I've been cooped up at home all day, trapped with no car and nothing but boundless episodes of Army Wives on Netflix. Talk about a bad combination. Now i just can't stop thinking about him, and for some reason i can't stop being negative about the whole situation. Another thing that is on my mind is that lately people have been telling me to "enjoy my youth" and not to "rush things." I guess it is because me and my bf have talked about getting married, and honestly, i really want to be with him for the rest of my life. I just wish everyone would understand that i feel this way because I want to cherish every waking moment i get with him, I mean you never know when everything can be taken away from you. I don't know much about anything but i do know how much love i have for this man, and how he makes me feel, and that is all i need to know...whether i get married now or later.
So yes, sorry for this jumbled post, i just literally have no other way to get these feelings out. I want to call his vmail and tell him myself, but what's the point? I know the separation doesn't last forever but right now i feel so darn alone...
adrieland 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 May 12, 2012