Strong Enough?

Ohhh boy...
Sometimes i don't feel like i am strong enough to be a "Marine's Girl." Today was my 21rst birthday, and because of IDK what I was unable to even get a text from my bf, absolutely nothing. I know it shouldn't bother me so much, but it was my special day and I couldn't even talk to him :/ Is this how it always will be??? Him always missing important dates, events, holidays? I'm just nervous that it won't get any easier. I don't know what to do. I love him and have chosen to love him for him, but i guess the past couple days i have been feeling pretty weak. I keep praying for strength, i just hope it comes soon. Anyone else feel like this and come out okay???
adrieland adrieland
18-21, F
4 Responses Jun 13, 2012

Thank you ladies, i know there are good days and bad days. It's funny how a really good conversation with my love can eradicate my doubts almost instantly. But there is still alot im getting used to about all this, its okay though, i honestly believe he and i are worth it (: Thanks again for the encouragement!

You just have to take a moment and look at what the relationship offers you. I know I've felt that way many times when my husband and I were dating. But the thing was when I took a step back, and looked at everything my Ty offered in our relationship all my doubt went out the window as fast as they came in. <br />
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As far as missing special occasions, yes that happens a lot and you have to be prepared for that. You can't blame them for that though, it's not by choice at all. My husband deployed two weeks after we got married, originally we were told he wasn't going to deploy till after the new year, but the corps always changes it's ways. We missed our first christmas, new years, v-day, family birthdays, 6 month wedding ani, things that of course I would have rather spent with my husband. But him leaving sooner meant he was getting home sooner also! So even though it was a instant negative at first, I got my husband home right as summer started and I'm happy with that. I know other marines that missed their kids birth, first walk, first word... It's hard of course, but as a wife and I know other marine wives, it's worth it in the end to have a man that is so loving and sacrifices so much not only for us but for our country. I know this all sounds a bit negative, but it's just realistic. You have to be prepared for special occasions to be missed, but you have to be focused on your man and how special he is to you. :)

I have been having these moments lately too. It's definitely hard to stay strong when there isn't any reciprocation or reassurance from him for so long. It's not that they don't want to but can't. My bf and I have just gotten through the first month of our first deployment and it's amazing how fast it feels like it has gone but at the same time looking at how much more time is left is a buzz kill. When he gets back from this deployment he will only be back a handful of months till he is gone again and that scares me into wanting to run the other direction. But I always tell myself these are just the low days and that we have already gotten through so much. It's the unknown that gets me into these moments so when I can't get strength from a message from him, I take strength in knowing we have come so far and grown so strong from it. I also get missing birthdays and holidays. My birthday is coming up in a few weeks, and Im hopeful to hear from him, but I have a feeling I'm setting myself up for disappointment.

I'm sure a lot of us can relate to that. I know there have been times where I really thought I would crack but then there's always the revelation of why I put up with the distance or lack of communication or I get the phone call that fixes things. Its tough but keep your chin up, they do miss a lot of things but remember its not because they want to. Hang in there girm