I Managed To Do It Again....

So it's official I'm the worst wife ever. I have officially managed to hurt my husband again. I don't know how I keep messing things up in our relationship but I do some how. I would do anything to go back and fix things. I would do whatever it took to make things right. I can't lose the love of my life. I can't hear him say that he can't do this anymore. I can't hear it, it will shatter my heart. He said he will call me in the morning. But that feels like an eternity from now. I haven't left all night and now I have to get up and start a full day of work and try not to break down and cry. I can't focus, all I can do is wait and hope that when he does call and I do pick up that phone it won't be the words that I dread most in the world. I hope that I will hear him say we can work this out. God please help me and my husband work through this and move on. Please help me understand what I have in my life and how I can stop messing things up so bad. God please give me the strength to get through this.
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3 Responses Nov 10, 2012

You cant be this hard on yourself i get at some point you we all go through this stage but never ever be this hard on you or him. Firstly take a deep breathe and list reasons why you can do this everytime you think you cant add on two more until you completely and entirely stop thinking negatively secondly it's not helping that he says stuff like that either next time call him out on it and ask him why have the conversation but you have to be in the right frame of mind as well. if you can get through the day you did enough if you need time close the windows and doors and just get out and fast scream shout whatever you need to it's alright - do it!! thirdly never ever ever stop believing in him or yourself dont ever let it happen!! Hope you feel better!!

Oh sweetie, we all do this! He is not going to say anything like what you're afraid of. Sounds like you really love each other and when he calls you'll find a way to work things out. Just tell him exactly what you wrote and I know he'll forgive whatever happened. It takes two to make a good relationship and you're obviously giving this your best. Don't give up on yourself! If you need to talk message me. I'm sorry you had such a bad time!

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