Anxiety Anxiety Anxiety

So I'm really having a bad day and night with my anxiety. I having a hard time dealing with the fact that I was in a car accident so my anxiety is through the roof and its not getting any better today. I've been trying to get ahold of Ryan to see if we can talk for just a minute cause he really helps with my anxiety when I have it this bad. I know I shouldn't depend on him for it as much as I am at the moment but I'm so in love with him that I just know that he will help me feel better. I've been talking to a few of my friend and they sort of helps and I've been back and forth on the phone with my dad the whole day as well. Thankfully he's not mad about it because the car can be fixed or replaced however I can be fixed but not replaced. And thankfully I wasn't hurt I'm just tryin to deal with the anxiety now and can't seem to shake it. I can't even relax enough to fall asleep. I had no physical injuries from my accident but I have injuries from when I played softball and having the anxiety is making me all tense so I'm in a ton of pain due to that and it's so bad that I can't pick up my kids and I love cuddling with them but even that is hurting me as well. I feel like Im just rambling in but it's kinda helping. I just wish I could Talk to Ryan to tell him I'm ok and let him know what's going in because until my car gets fixed I definetly won't be going to San Diego for his return to he states which makes my anxiety even worse. So all in all my car accident just messed everything up. I right now I feel so alone on top of it because I don't have anyone here to sit and cry to or have just hold me
Ldylvlylcks2002 Ldylvlylcks2002
31-35, F
Jan 10, 2013