Don't Push Me Away...So, my guy isn't a Marine yet but it seems like he'll be leaving for boot in Aug (although he's looking to see if he can move the date up)
Anyways, for maybe about 2 weeks straight, we've had a lot of fights. I don't know why, but he seemed to be fighting me a lot, and during this time, he seemed a little off. He ignored me a whole lot and just didn't seem like himself. So one day last week during a fight, I finally brough it up to him. I said to him that I don't know why he's been acting the way he's been acting, but even during our fights he seemed off. I said that I don't know what's going on with him and I can't help him if he doesn't talk to me. I also told him I felt like he's changed.
Finally, after a long while, he was saying he wants to be kind of distanced from me. I asked him to come over, and even while he was here, we got into a HUGE blow out, it was very ugly. There were a lot of anger and a LOT of tears. We then, towards the end got to the subject of why he's been different and weird lately.
Turns out, he was being more of an *** cuz he's scared. He's scared of me thinking I made a huge mistake talking to him. He's going to be gone for three months and I'm going to be home free and what if i meet someone I really liked and wanted to be with but I can't be with said guy because I'm attached to him? He felt that by trying to distance himself and not share feelings we won't be too attached so that when I find someone new, I can just dump him and keep it moving.
WOW he makes me seem really mean and heartless, I swear I'm NOT like that at all lol. I have NO plans on dumping him while he's in boot camp and I said that to him. I know that it'll be hard on me the first day he's gone, or even the first week, first month, or the whole damn thing, but I'll find myself things to do, I'm not gonna just dump him.
I told him that he should definitely take a chance on everything, and he decided he will. Hopefully he's not ever going to try distant himself from me so it'll make it easier for me to find someone else. Such CRAZY talk.
MochaChocolatte 18-21 3 Responses 0 Jan 21, 2013