You All Are SO Lucky...I envy each and every one of you who's man still loved you when he got out of bootcamp and that didn't let the so called brain washings they do at bootcamp get to your love....
i just need a place to vent and type everything i'm feeling right now...
mad, annoyed, sad, furious, confused..
a couple months ago, my boyfriend graduated from bootcamp. nov 18.
before he left, we weren't exactly the best couple.. he always put me second to everything, but i was too in love to even care. i was leaving for college in september, and we talked about how no matter what, we were going to make it work.
he graduates bootcamp, and i broke up with him. why? i realized how much of an ******* he was. after 3 months of no communication, only letters, he texts me saying "i'm out" i ask him to call me and he said he can't cuz he's on the road. okay, what about when he gets home? nope, too tired he says. then my brother tells me he's online for xbox live. then for a week, he blows me off, wanting to go see his friends and show off his title. blows off me. the girl he said he loved. we broke up. he agreed. he told me i deserved better. we kissed goodbye, so i was okay, i wasn't too devastated.
then, in january, we start talking again. my feelings come back.
and so do his.
we start skyping, and he tells me how pretty i am, how much he misses me. whenever we text, which was everyday for a month, we texted like we were dating. he flirted with me, i flirted back. called me beautiful, saying he hopes he can see me soon.
then, one day, i decide to tell him how i feel about him.
and he totally rejects me.
he said he wants to be single.
to focus on his training.
and how if we get together he's afraid he'll hurt me cuz he might do something stupid like cheat on me.
he thinks, now that he's a marine, he can get any girl he wants.. ugh whatever.
i move on. he says he wants to be friends, and if we can forget about this convo.
he continues ..
then like 2 weeks ago, he asked me what my feelings were for him. and he said he still loves me.
but then says he just wants to be friends. doesn't know what he wants. acting like a complete ****. thinking that now that he's all buff, he can get anyone, so doesn't want to be tied down to me.
and he tells me he's talking to another girl.
completely breaks my heart.
it was very hard. .. but i told him not to talk to me anymore.
not to text me.
he's such a jerk.
the marine's completely changed him. he let it happen. he used to be the sweetest guy ever.. always get upset when i wouldn't hold his hand. ...
you girls are so lucky. i don't blame the marines. i blame him.
i no longer have a marine title of a usmc gf...
cuz we are never ever ever... getting back together.