He Did Me So So So So Dirty :(
Well first of all i would like to thank you ladies for helping me get through missing my marine but now i miss him a different way because he is no "MY" marine anymore! As most of you probably read i wrote a story over labor day weekend about him going out and partying with his friends and him and i had a long talk over it and we worked things out. but before that he was calling me up all the sudden saying he wanted to get married in vegas and have kids. Well us already having our wedding planned for a year i said no lets just wait a year to have out wedding and we can talk about children after we are married but i really dont want to have any children until im out of school and your out of t he military so we can take care of them toghther and not have some stranger taking care of my kids. well he finally agreed and that was that. yeah that week had been a bad week for us but this past week he acted like everything was fine! He was more about me like before he wanted me to move where he was being stationed and i thought about it and i told him i would and then he said well it will probably be best if you stayed where you were with your family and friends. i was like ok well make up your mind and let me know because im willing to move. and i told him that if he would have treated me like he did over his ten day leave after boot camp then i probably would marry him sooner but because he went out and partied and didnt call me it showed me that he was not ready to get married yet and i said we needed to wait like we planned. I told him I didnt think he was ready to be a daddy yet either and he called me up so happy but freaking out asking me if he was going to be a dad. I said i dont think so it has not even been a month yet since i have seen you (yesterday was our month since we have seen each other) but you on his ten day leave we were fine. he got me a phone and we got a phone plan together so that it would be cheaper for us to talk on the phone. we were so happy and so unspeperable. then he had to leave for his mos and he thought that he was going to pick up right away well he called me that night and was like no they just told us we are going to be on guard for a month but the good news is i get to talk to you on the phone every day. well that made me happy and we have talked on the phone everyday except for the days of labor day. well he told me we were running over minutes on our phone and i told him i would look at it and try to upgrade our mintures and he said ok you know i love i miss you i cant wait to see you you rock my world and your the only girl for me. but he had to go. so i get on the internet and he had used most of our 700 mintues up. and i thought who has he been talking to because we got our phone togther so if would be cheaper because its moble to moble and his parents are moble to moble and his friends are with him in the squad bay. so i get on there and start looking and there is a bunch of numbers from odessa and i know he has family there so i didnt think anything about it. but i stated looking down and that number was on there a lot and there was times that he had talk to that number for 40 minutes so i thought i would *67 so i did and a girl ansered and said it was jessica. well i kinda didnt think anything about it because he has a cousin named jessica and he was telling me later that week that his buddy has been using his phone to call his girl so i thought it was one of the two... but then i start looking farther into our phone bill and there was a phone call to her for 136 minutes and then a phone call to me right after that and i realized that that was the night he called me up yelling at me saying he was ready to get married and take the next step that he has seen his future and he knows i will be by his side. so i called the girl back and i didnt block my number this time and i was like this is kari you dont know me but i was wondering how you know david and she was like why and i was like well this is his girlfriend and we have a phone plan together and this number has been showing up a lot on our bill and she said a girlfriend huh thanks and i said wait well how do you know he and she said he had been talking to her that he told her that he had a girlfriend but i broke up with him before he went to boot camp because i could not take the marine thing. i was like no we have been together for 13 months now and she said wow. this is funny. and im thinking funny you dumb b***h this is not funny. she said he had been talking to her for two weeks on the phone had never met her and was already talking about marrying her. so i called him up and i was wow you messed up and he said yeah i have been talking to her she is ready to settle down and have a family and you are not yet. i said whatever and he said he would call me back. me thinking he would call me back appologizing like he always did never called me back and she messaged me and was like is he talking to you i said no you and she said yeah he is talking to me. so i messaged him and he said that he really likes this girl no he had not met her or anything but he knew a good thing when he has one and she is a good thing. he said im going my own direction with school and him and her our going their direction. he said i needed to move on and find another guy he said that should not be too hard you can have another guy in like a week because he has moved on. How the H*ll do you do from one hour telling a girl you love her you cant wait to marry her and see her to the next hour telling her that yeah you found someone else and your going to be with them because they will settle down first. He is seriously making the biggest mistake of his life. i know if i talked to a guy that i never met and he told me with knowing him for two weeks that he wanted to marry me i would change my number because that is just creapy! She obviously has no goals in life because thats was my only down fall when it came to him i was a independent woman and i had my own goals and he wanted me to be only dependednt on him and go where he wanted to go. yes i wanted to move with him and start school somewhere else. yes we planned on getting married in a year the only thing is i didnt want to have kids until 3 more years. how is that not wanting to settle down with him. Like there are so many questions unasnswered. like why did he all the sudden start looking for another girl. we were so happy over his ten day leave and we had been very happy even though he is there and i am here. there was one week where he had been mean to me and he has been making up for it this past week he was so sweet to me. and i was getting real emotional about him being gone agiain so he was going to fly me down there in two weeks so we could see each other. but she told me she is flying down to see him this weekend and he is paying for it. so back to back he wanted to have a girl with him over the weekend. and i guess when he went partying over labor day she said he didnt call her either and then called trying to suck up exactly what he did with me. I think he is just being with her because he knows it would be easier than trying to work things out with me. I dont know im so upset i dont eat i dont sleep i have been crying my eyes out and i dont know what to do. I want him back so bad but then again i know i wont be able to trust him! like in a way i wish i was pregnant so none of this would have happened. Im so upset. what made him changes his feelings over night on how he felt about me? and how long was he going to drag me along with her. was he just waiting until he met her so he could figure out whether he liked her or not so that he was not stuck with no one or what?
Im sorry girls im really not telling you this story to scare any of you all... I just am so hurt and now i have noone to talk to. and you were my girls you felt how i have felt and i know you guys know how crushed you would be if you found out this about your marine! now all i have is pictures, a broken heart, a phone that he is going to turn off, a ring, a bunch of clothes of his, and a bunch of memories. I just wished he would want me back as much as i want him back!