I Am Going Insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help Me!!!! Lol

so brandon just called...

ok ladies... let me breakdown whats going on....

So when I say i feel like his heart isnt in it ... its because hes not showing love like he used to ... he used to be allllll over me .. and i remember telling him like brandon, this is too much, we gotta slow down and give some space, because were not going to be able to last like this ... and since Nov/Dec it seems like hes gotten comfortable .. idk if hes gotten comfortable or fell out of love idk .... he didnt get me **** for christmas ... he didnt get me **** for vday or my bday ... that vday gift? remember I posted? the day before valentines I logged on his bank account, i knew he hadnt gotten me ****, and i flipped .. not so much angry, but hurt .. ya know? so after that he ordered taht gift and it came on my bday ...

Then yall know about the lies ... i dont think hes cheating i really really dont .. IDK .. and the last few weeks HE HAD BEEN DOING SO GOOD ... talking to me about spending money before he did it, so we were on the same page, he stayed in the barracks last weekend and watched taht movie online with me ... and i was feelin so loved he was doing REALLY GOOD ... so this past weekend I asked him if he wanted to go hang out at his friends house ... and he told me NO.. because we had issues before about him going over there, he felt like i didnt want him to go .. but he had been showin so much love i really really was going to tell him he should go!! ya know? hes doing right, doin good, go do you, i trust you ... and i did ... well he told me he didnt go .....

then saturday, he went MIA ... i couldnt get ahold of him, he called me once, and after that i didnt hear from him ... i was going crazy ... well my laptop was messed up, so i couldnt log on his t-mobile account, but when i woke up sunday and hadnt heard from him i was like **** this, I had my super P.I. Natalie, log on for me, and she got me some numbers from his phone book online ... and i called the friends whose house HE TOLD ME HE DIDNT WANT TO GO TO .. and guess what ... HE WAS THERE!!!!

I couldnt ******* believe it ... LIES... so im like ok this dude is a pathological liar, hes really got lying issues ... and i told him that, and he agreed, and was saying he would go to medical, and go to counselling for it ... so anyway ... ima try to keep this short ... basically he should have called me sunday, to talk more ... and he didnt ... he emailed me ... but i felt like he knew i was really upset .. he NEEDED TO ******* CALL ... OH WAIT ... also ... he phone has been messed up ... (hes been having issues with it for weeks, the last week or two hes been using another marines prepaid phone, he just put his sim card in it and it was working ..) well apparently on Saturday, it locked up, and was telling him he needed a PKU card???? and he had sent me an email saturday night... like at midnight, after he had already been MIA all day .. and told me his phone was messed up .. but i didnt get it til i called over that house and got ahold of him, and he told me he had emailed me ...

anyway, so in order for him to call me sunday, he needed to borrow someone elses phone, and he said he didnt want to do that, but he did email... whatever... so we emailed all night and he really wasnt acting like he cared enough to me I WANTED TEARS!!! HE BOLDFACE LIED!!! he did end up really sounding remorsefull or whatever .... but i wanted to still make him pay!!! i was going to make him go like 3 days without talking to me ...

so monday he called from someone elses phone at lunch ... but i didnt answer ... then monday night I got my laptop working and logged on his gmail and saw he had checked his email, but he couldnt send me one??? I was planning on ignoring it BUT STILL!!! HE DIDNT KNOW THAT!!

THEN I TRIED TO LOG ONTO HIS BANK ACCOUNT AND IT SAID THE LOGGON INFORMATION WASNT RIGHT!!! ladies i copied and pasted it, made sure it was all correct like 5 times typing each letter slowly to be very sure ... and it wasnt working ... so im thinking he changed it so i couldnt get to it and i flipped out .... have yall ever seen that movie on baby boy? you know that part where taraji henson is like HE DONT LOVE ME NO MORE HE DONT LOVE ME NO MORE!!! yea, that was me!! I sent him some emails .. and was really like OMFG ITS REALLY OVER!!!

Then I talked to my mama, and got my mind right, and i posted that story on here, and that was it ... it was almost a relief, because i could stop going crazy wondering what was going on with him, and could just move on ...

Well, he just called me from a friends phone ... and im like you dont gotta do me like those other girls (all his ex's he never really broke up with them, he jsut left them hanging, slowly took them off his myspace, ignored all their messages, and just let them figure it out that it was over) and i was like 'if you really love me like that dont do that, its ok its ok i understand" BLAH BLAH BLAH ... and hes like what are you saying??? and i ask about his bank account, and hes like how could i change that? (his laptop is messed up) and hes been in the field since 3am ... and yea, last week he did say he was going to be helping out with this training excersize ... and he said he didnt email me because he was busy getting gear together blah blah ... but im thinking (because i dont want him to know i log on his ****) you can check an amazong spam mail, but not email me???

And so im on the phone telling him i know its over, and i know he loves us, its just not there anymore,  and its ok, he doesnt have to lie, he doesnt have to do me like his exes and hes jsut like "NO." ... keep in mind, hes using someone elses phone, on a bus full of marines .... and so while im talking to him, i go to log on his bank account AND IT ******* LETS ME!!!! WHAT THE ****!?!?!??!?!? So I told him what happened, and how i was so distraught thinking it was over, and he was just like, no its not, but i can understand why you felt that way ....

You guys i FEEL LIKE IM REALLY REALLY NUTSO!!! lmaoo for real!!! So He told me he was going to call me tonight, after they got back, from the same phone ...

so that was it, then I called my mom, and she was like "arent you glad you didnt message his sister like you wanted to?" lmaoo i wanted to, my mom talked me out of it ... anyway, so i was talking to my mom ... and the more i talked about the problems ... the more they sounded like youre usual issues in a relationship ..... men not treating their woman like they did in the beggining? thats why ive been feeling like his hearts not in it, because he used to chase me!! like crazy! i would flip out and be mad hanging up on him and he would call me back to back, and he doesnt do that anymore!!! and the not getting gifts for holidays, i guess men are pretty notorious for being stupid about that **** too...

and when you add the distance ... and the stress of being in the marine corps ... I guess were doing pretty good?

except for the lies? but he said he wants to fix that, and i really do believe him when he says that.

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10 Responses Mar 17, 2009

LMAO hahaha i just busted out laughing at the school library and everyone is l0oking at me like im retarded

i know what you mean, i flipped out when i didnt hear from mine for a while, but its all good, we totally worry too much.. but beforet things get blown outta proportion with the bank account && the tmobile account && the friend thing.. just wait it out... he might not have told you bout his friends house cause he was affraid you would flip out on him again... you know?? i did that with my hunnie, but in turn i should have just told him && he wouldnt have even cared.. so it was a lesson learned, just like that was for you..

WTF!?!? Chicken nuggets for your birthday?? Who does that??

I know im younger but i never really cared about my past bf or boys that i was talkin to like you said i just dealt with them until i got tired of them so i understand but i learned me lesson about the semi-stalking w/ josh about a year ago i mean hey i was 16 in love and felt like he was cheating so i made sure he wasnt... =( he found out and was mad but hey @ LEAST IT WASNT TRUE =)

no your not crazy b/c i prob would have went thru all of his ish to altho we set ourselves up to be hurt by going through their things!<br />
& even though its all good now dont let himj off the hook to easy he still did some f***ed up ish!<br />
& yay for nat computere working lol

idk i think he should still be making a effort .... its not like yall see eachother everyday thats how you get in a rut! i think if you dont get to see eachother for months you should still be making the effort

lol i dont think its that either, but yeah i was totally thinking about that song. actually listening to it now haha

ahaha when i read nat's comment, i was totally thinking of keyshia cole in my head.

idk what to tell you it does sounds liek hes getting distant... i know the one year mark is always a jinx everyone i know that hit the one year mark either broke up or had a huge fight! maybe he is freaking out about the commitment & its not just you its a package deal so its even scarier!

YAY!!! i hope you guys can make it work. and LMAO@nat not being able to log onto her account. i know how u feel damn passwords!!! i hope everything will work out for you, and taylah :)