its officially one week down of this deployment for us and though it seemed to drag on and linger i think things are looking up from here
i went and mailed my first 2 letters yesterday and am almost done with my first box to send out. i havent heard from him yet to just say he got there but thats okay. as much as id love to hear form him right about now. i think its better for both of us right now to not do that. i think it will hinder my adjusting to him being gone again. i know that sounds bad but i just know how i feel when hes gone. its like i need to flip a switch in order to handle him being gone. if he was to call me now i know imma be all i miss you i miss you and that makes it worse on him and i get all sad alllll over again. so for us this works, i know for sure it makes it easier on him to adjust then manage to write me a letter or call once he has his war bearings back. i know that no news is good news. i know that if i dont get a phone call from his father or a call from his friend adam hes fine. and that makes me feel better. but soon id like to get a letter or a email or maybe a call to hear him say hes fine and well be fine.
anywho i went to 29 palms this week and got chris car. it was bittersweet bc now i have his car and alllllll his posessions meaning i get to look and hold and touch them whenever i feel the need and then it makes me sad bc everytime his car was at my house it ment i was going to get to spend me weekend with him and i was going to be unexplainably happy...but being in the car without him makes me sad. we used to explore everwhere around here [[bc i just moved idk where anything is hahah]] and just be out dong nothing all day haha...so ya :/
but other than that im doing good you know just chilling trying to find a job!