Sooo Confused! Any Thoughts?

 So I am utterly confused. In my last post I talked about how my guy and I had both admitted that we loved each other. Well when I got this letter saying it I asked him if that meant or he wanted to be together. This is something we have talked about for over a year now.

  Well today I got the response to that letter! I was so nervous but most of it was really sweet. Totally not like him but he was obviously just being cutesy. Then it got to the moment of truth. He brought up the issue at hand. He said that he would like to be with me. That he would have liked that for the last year. But then he goes on to say that he doesn’t think that’s possible now though. he talks about how little he will be home after boot and how long it will be after that with MCT and MOS school. He does end it by saying that we will talk about it when we see each other. And then he concludes with he misses and loves me.

 I don’t know how to take this. I don’t know if there is any chance. I don’t know why he’s doing this. I don’t know if he just doesn’t want me waiting. If he doesn’t think I will. Or if he’s just scared he’s going to get hurt.  I don’t know what to do or think about this. His best friend is coming over to try and make some sense of him with me later but I am freaking out now. I wondered what yall thought…!

nfdpolo nfdpolo
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 16, 2010

Hi i'm Kerry. My fiancee just got done with boot and now is at MCT. I don't think his feelings are fading or anything, he's probably just scared. and maybe doesnt wanna start a relationship from a letter, that would be hard i'd imagine. But he'll be home soon, thats a good thing! If its meant to be it will work out. Just take it one letter at a time, i think everything is, and will be fine.<br />
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Let us know how it turns out! (: goodluck.

Hey, sorry I'm Nina. I had posted one before when I got the letter saying 'I love you' and gave backround into his and my 'story'. but that may have been a week or two ago. Ugg I hope you are right that he will be willing to try. He graduates the 12th of March and should be back that day/ the next morning! So it isnt too much longer but im just so anxious. I wish I knew where i stood and what he was thinking!