Need To Vent..

I don't want anyone's pity, I just really need to get everything off my chest before this all builds up...

I've been getting more confident lately about my whole relatioship with kieth, but it seems like my close friendships with people are falling apart...and now once again i feel like questioning EVERYTHING in my life. My best friend and I barely even talk anymore, she's only hanging out with our one friend who is close friends with this guy she likes and I feel left out all the time.. My other friends is so caught up in this one boy she just started seeing, that I feel like we have nothing to talk about anymore.. Both of these friends are ones who think I should be single in college or go into college in an "open relationship".  I have two really close guy friendsthat I still hang out with a lot, but it's not the same as close girl friends :/ I feel like Kieth is the only one I can really talk to about everything that's going on, but I haven't had a letter from him in 2 weeks... I might get one tomorrow though. (they usually come on wednesdays) I really could use it right now.. I just feel like so much is falling apart, and I don't know what to do...

Sorry if this whole post seemed dumb, I know it's not nearly that bad, I just feel like I need to talk about it somehow, ya know?..

Hope everyone else is doing well

00allison00 00allison00
18-21, F
3 Responses Mar 2, 2010

I get it as well the person i thought would understand the most would be my best friend. We have been friends since the 3rd grade and when Jason went to boot camp she was like Sam stop bitching when i went home we had a long talk and she was like aw Sam i'm so sorry i just never undertood. The thing is they wont get it cause they not in that situation until they are they won't get it! I worked it out with my best friend we still very close and she's alot of help i really hope it works out for u!

Thanks girls :]<br />
me and my best friend got things figured out. this stuff just reminds me as to why im excited to get out of high school. I'm hoping I''ll get my letter tomorrow. I miss my boy! ha. I hate having these emotional mood swings. one minute i'm completely convinced that things will work out the next that they wont blah. its no fun. haha

I understand exactly what you are going through. I feel like I don't have a any close girl friends now since I went to college. Right now my best friend and boyfriend Collin isn't here either (he's in camp lejeune). But try not to beat yourself up about it. One thing that helps me is just taking time for myself...try new things, join a club or volunteer at some place. It will help you feel better and maybe you'll meet some really cool people. If you ever wanna chat just send me a message. My name is Becky by the way and I'm 18. :)