Missin' Him

Hey y'all.  I am just missing him a lot tonight.  I still havent heard from him since last Friday when I recieved that scary call.  I know that he is in hell and I know I cant do anything but be here for him.  I wish I could do more.  I had the best dream last night about him being home and helping him decorate his new place and helping him settle back in to his life at home...In my dream he was being distant but then he remembered that it was me, and let his guard down and held me.  I did not want to wake up.  The dream was so real, it was almost like I got to spend the night with him... Something I wont get to do until July or August.  But it is getting closer :)

I just need to hear those magic words from him, "Im Ok".  I know when it gets gritty and dangerous, Paul gets distant.  Which is fine, I want him to focus on his job and getting back here safe.  He knows I am here.  But it gets hard when he gets distant.  Anyways, I just miss him and want so badly to feel his arms around me.  I am hoping for another great dream soon.  I live for those! Ughhhhh.  Sorry just needed to whine a lil bit!

sittingwaitinwishin sittingwaitinwishin
22-25, F
5 Responses Mar 2, 2010

I love your attitude! And no worries..everyone needs to whine a little bit. Stay strong! July/August isn't too far away.

I love your attitude! And no worries..everyone needs to whine a little bit. Stay strong! July/August isn't too far away.

Aw thats such an amazing dream! I find the nights are always the hardest for me as well i know jason is not deployed but there's always the time just before i go to bed thats the hardest for me! I hope it gets better u!

Aw girl hang in there just take it one day at a time i love your dream though they really are the best break from reality!!

I love when I have dreams about Ryan like that, whenever I do nothing can ruin my day :)