One Last HugSo I dropped him off this morning and I couldn't stop crying! I was being strong while he said his good-byes to family and friends earlier in the week, but this morning I just broke down. While we were in the car, I could tell that he was very nervous and we went to kiss but he was worried about kissing me because he thought that he was going to get sick and didnt want to get sick on me haha He is very goofy and was making some jokes to make me smile and laugh, but it was still so hard to see him walk away from me.
I had to fight with myself not to go back and run into his arms again after dropping him off. I just wanted one more hug from him. Just one more. I didn't want to let him go! I just went home into his bed and cuddled up with his blankets and pillows and tried to breathe him in. He was able to text me for a while until he had to go to processing and then the plane.
I am confident that he will do well and surpass his own potential, but at the same time, I just couldn't help but say, "I don't want you to go" as time came closer for him to leave, in which he replied, "Don't worry babe, I love you and it will be okay". I am torn because I don't want to be separated from him like this, but at the same time, I want him to be there because its what he wants to do and I know that it will make him happy even when he has to "drop and give them 20" lol I just hope that time goes by really fast!
ILoveMyGuardsman 18-21, F 0 Jan 7, 2013