Nothing Seems Right

If you're like me and the girlfriend of an army soldier, you already know it's hard and sometimes you question everything you have. Which is right where I am at. My soldier is stationed in Germany right now, and has been there for the past two years. He had orders to come home this July to a base only an hour away from where I live now. I was sooo excited and counting down the days till I could see him again. But unfortunately the army always has to ruin your plans and now he has orders to be deployed to Afghanistan in July for the next nine months, with no orders to come back home any time soon. I am so upset and frustrated and sometimes I don't think I can do this anymore, but at the same time I don't know what I'd do without him in my life. Before I found out about his new deployment, I was already upset with the long distance and the only thing getting me through was knowing that he would be coming back this summer. Now, I don't know what to do. I don't want to be selfish and give up on him, but at the same time I don't want him to get down because I'm down.
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Feb 8, 2013