6 Months Together Then 1 Year Deployment?
I met a fantastic man just three months ago, and he deploys in three months for his one year deployment. He will be sent as part of Obama's master plan which is really whatever McCrystal intends to do with them...but don't get me started on the politicians. I wish I could have met him on different terms, but you can't choose when love finds you. So here is our story in a nut shell... I only wish there was someone in my life who supports my decision to support my soldier.
I am scared. I'm going into this trying to enjoy every last moment I have with him while I can. I'm trying to convince myself that I can do this and that trying to make it through this together is entirely possible and that 6 months with him is going to be enough to make it through 1 year without him... I'm scared. All the people in my life think I'm either crazy to think of staying or crazy to think of going. Only one person thinks I should wait for him, and she only says that because she is military herself.
I cry often when I read the news. I cry often when I so much as think of what he is going to face. I cry when he isn't around. I cry when I think of losing him, and I fear losing more than I ever though possible when he goes, but I know that in doing this, no matter where he goes or what he faces, he will have my love and my strength when he feels there is nothing left to fall back on.
I don't know if this is what is right for me. I don't know if I can make it and I know that I would feel even worse if I decided I couldn't while he was away. Anyone who has input from similar experiences would be VERY appreciated...