Why Won't He Leave Meok ... i need to vent...
i've been doing my thing, focusing on me - not him - and its good because i feel better about myself... but damn!!... when will he let go and let me be??!!! it's seriously worse than when my daughter was a nagging toddler!! ... where are you going? who are you talking to? why are you ignoring me? why don' t you call me? why don't you love me anymore? when can i see you? blah blah blah.... GO AWAY!!!! he calls everyday... he txts everyday... he's pulling me back in!!!
i don't mean to sound heartless but i obviously need to change something. i keep telling myself i'm in control and i don't have to react to him but its draining. do i have to get rude again and tell him to take a hike? i was hoping i wouldn't have to do that but i'm not sure anymore. maybe i'm still in limbo because i'm not being clear enough with him or myself. sometimes i wish he would be like most mm's and just stop trying so hard! ugh!
seeingthelights 36-40, F 14 Responses 0 Feb 19, 2011