I am not sure how to start this, but I am having an affair with a much older man. I am not married nor do I have a boyfriend. We have been working together for the past 4 years and about 6 months ago he kissed me. It started off slow and I liked what we had between us. However, as more time goes on the more I need him. I only get to sleep with him once a week and usually he can only stay for an hour or so. I am starting to have serious feelings for him, but he will never leave his wife and tells me that he cannot be "my boyfriend". I am an emotional roller coaster when it comes to him. He tells me that this can only go as far as I am willing to take it. That I am always going to get the short end of the stick and that if he has to **** me off or his wife that it is always going to be me. I just get so frustrated not being able to see him and then I get depressed since I want him so bad and I cannot have him. At this point I do not know what I should do. When I think about not being able to see him anymore it tears me up inside. I cannot image not being with him anymore. But in the same breath, it is not fair to me. I will never have a chance to truly be with him. I would love to hear some inputs from others on my situation. Whether I should continue in this "relationship" or maybe it is time to try to distance myself from him.