Tangled

It was supposed to a casual outing with my family to another family's home for a get together, there we met yet another family (his) and even though at first site I thought he was a very attractive man I never intended on ever talking to him or getting to know him especially since that night his wife revealed to all of us that she was prego.

All of us clicked immediately and the next day went out for a  family outing. That day one of men in my family revealed to me that he was asking about me and wanted my phone number well he gave it to him before I even said if it was OK or not. That night he called me and we talked for about an hour or two mostly he was telling me how attractive I was and he had to get to know me, also how bad his marriage was and how she got prego on purpose because their marriage was on the rocks.

Well it went from just chatting on the phone to seeing each other quite often, meanwhile I would see him every weekend anyway because our families hang out and get together. I didn't feel bad at the beginning because I kept telling myself that  I didn't know her and she wasn't my fiend. That changed too we talk every now and then visit each others houses and the guilt is building up every time I see her.

My feelings for him have grown so much, I really truly feel as if I have fallen for him and he has fallen for me even with that I still feel as if I should let him go but I CANT!. I have never been in a situation like this before and if I could go back to the day we met I would have never even began any of this. I feel like the biggest loser when we are all together all the couples and I am alone and there he is with his freaking wife.

He seems like he is ready and tired of his situation and tells me all the time that he is ready to go but wants to make sure that he is not wasting his time with me, because I am younger than he is and I'm guessing is afraid that I might change my mind and and leave him after he loses everything. I dint know... I dint know... some times I just want to pack my bags and leave town. I feel so lost, guilty confused and alone at times. I feel like I'm at the bus stop not knowing  when the bus is going to arrive waiting and waiting.

Whats worse is that since we are all close and its in inner circle thing I cant really talk to anyone about this so if there is anyone out there in a similar situation please comment back.

Thank you!

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26-30
1 Response May 14, 2008

Maybe I'm cold hearted but I had a friend pass away last fall from a freak car accident and I realize that life really is short and we only have one. I'm not trying to hurt anyone, but I believe that if you 2 want to be together, then you should be. That's just life...yes I'm sure his eife will be hurt but there are problems there to begin with since he was searching for something else (you). I know some men are just dogs and want the best of both worlds, but if he's willing to leave and you're willing to be with him, then I say go for it. I'm not saying I'm right or wrong. I would have left for the one I was seeing, (even thought he was kind of abusive) but I love him, I miss him. It just happened I got one those men who want everything and everyone. But if you're willing, go for it!