Written on May 1st, 2012
I get so confused. When he can't see me, I seem to try and let go of him a little bit in my heart, trying to protect myself. I move along and try not to think of him as much, then we get some time together and I fall in love all over again. I know its not fair to me, to his wife, or even to him. I keep telling him I should let him go. Something won't let me. I need him. I know he needs me too. We fill an empty place in each other's hearts, not to mention the passion we share. Day at a time is our motto. I am happy in his arms. He doesn't love me enough to leave her, but he loves me and I love him. How can something so wrong, feel so right? I can only take it a day at a time, otherwise I'll go crazy.