My Sisters Husband
I secretly became involved w/my sisters husband. he took my virginity, and gave me my first kiss. I just hope people on here dont judge me to hard on here, cause i do enough of that on myself, and other people who i feel are just focusing on that part...because it was with my SISTERS husband. Basically, she found out, and our whole family but ive been going thru sooooo much. Its hard too cause hes always gonna be in our lives, they recently had twins.
I say dont judge me only cause my story is sooooooo complex, and confusing, and painful. And deep down, I know im a good, moral person despite my ONE big mistake. (or am i?) Sometimes i feel so dirty, and so worthless, and gross..i cant even look at myself in the mirror. I was gonna write out my story infull, but it'll take too much time/energy. And to be honest, i dont know how to stop this pain. And its so hard to just take other peoples advice when they say sever all contact w/him...he was my first LOVE....well physically and emotionally on some level anyways. and im not gonna lie, i have SOME feelings for him still...but i just want to find peace...and REAL love, any suggestions on getting over this hurdle?
I made arrangements to go see a counselor, but right now am on a waiting list. joy..lol