I Didn't Realize How Much Love I Really Have For Him

I have been seeing my mm for a few months. He comes around as often as I want him to come by. There have never been any arguements between us. At first when he would leave, it didn't bother me. Now, I totally feel how I really love him. His wife has been cheating on him for the past few years. This just came out in the open. We've talked about us leaving together and starting a new life.

When he is not around, I can't stand being without him. He comes in as if he really lives with me. He takes care of my kids as if they are his. Two weeks ago, he came over at about 8:00 a.m. When we awakened, it was 2:30 p.m. He really didn't want to leave. He only left to take her to work. I felt like I was about to die. He took me in his arms and kissed me so passionately. I felt as if I were melting in his arms. He looked at me and told me that he loved me. I stopped and told him not to ever say that if it were not true. I have known him and the wife for a long time. This is not only the man I am now beginning to love......this is a close friend.

The 'l' word has not been in this marriage in years. She uses and holds so many things against him. When he is here, he is at peace. This weekend, we were out in the same club. He watched me all night. We have been goid about keeping our relationship really quiet. However, this night proved to be very different. He was all over me and acknowledging me as his "woman". I was so shocked. His wife text him while we were there and told him she knew we were together. I felt so bad that I left.

It has been two days since I've talked to him. It is killing me. He has,called, but I won't answer. Tell me if I am wrong. But, I can't help who I love.
reesesj reesesj
3 Responses Jun 11, 2012

Stop the affair now. They never end well. Read every blog its all the same save yourslef lots of grief pain and sorrow. My affair just ended aftre 21 month and i was the MM....<br />
Stop it NOW

He is my friend and I met her through him. I don't know why he stays there with her. I have not asked why he is still thete. He is talking about a divorce, but it feels as if she is to hold on to him. He is a good man and deserves better.

If his wife has been cheating for the past few years, she really can't say anything about your relationship. Do you feel bad because you are friends with her? Why are they still together if they are both seeing other people? Wouldn't it just be easier to end it and go their own ways? Why keep the relationship a secret? If you love each other then be together. Obviously the wife already knows about you.