One Disadvantage Of Being Strong Is That People Think Its Ok To Hurt You.We talked last night, i said I'm sorry for the mess i may have cause him, that i didn't mean to cause any trouble, that if he wants to end the relationship i'll be more willing and i'll make it easier for him. He said no, im not causing any trouble (yet, i guess), and that there's no way he's gonna end our affair no matter what it takes. He loves me and our daughter and he's gonna keep us.
I always make sure to let him know that I'm fine and I'll be fine without him, and I can take care of the baby. Well, I have a good job that pays the best compensation. My family is supportive, I have the best friends around, I have set of admirers too. I still imagine myself having a good life without him. But I knew it would be so painful at first, shaking him off will be the most difficult thing i could ever do, (if I could).
We're too far from each other yet i could feel his presence, he makes me smile, he brings joy to my life. He check on me always, we talk a lot of things, share everything. I wish he's all mine, but he's not and i make sure to not hope and to not lose self-respect.
For now, things are still manageable. I guess his wife must have heard about me already, but i am not feeling the fuss, my MM is i guess good at keeping both of us. If and when time comes that she confront me, I think i wont argue with her, i'll say sorry and that she takes care of her husband. I guess i'll take all the blame so that they can still move on with their marriage.
painkw3en 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 Jun 24, 2012