Seeing Her

I knew his girlfriend of 15 years lived 2 miles away and I past it all the time but I didn't know the exact house. I've seen her walking the dog and stopped to talk to her. (she's actually a nice person. Yesterday I saw her on her porch. I waved.
I don't know why but it bothers me knowing where she lives and realizing how close it is. Perhaps it makes her more real. I'm starting to see her as a sister wife.
Badina Badina
46-50, F
2 Responses Jul 18, 2012

When you know them, you now know your "competition" and that is what she is. It isn't something you think about, but something that is lurking below the surface. I would be so sad at times becuase I knew where he was and I felt I had no right to be upset because she had him first and that killed me. I never felt resentful towards his kids, they were great for him, but her? I knew very little about her because he wasn't going to let her into our relationship, but that kind of made it worse because I didn't know who I was compared to. One thing you know is if she should find out, you will lose more than a lover, but most likely a freind too. Decide what you want and then put a very large space between the two of them. Better to be a little sad now than devistated later.

I do know that he does his best to keep us apart. The one time she and I sat and talked he thought we were talking about him. We actually talked about our dogs. <br />
He says that we are a lot alike. I can see his concerns, as my physical issues get better, my mental outlook is changing. I'm not looking forward to the conflict but I know it's coming. No matter I will survive.