Being The Other Woman And Missing Him

In continuation to my last story… I know that I may be judged and people can tell me how bad of a person I am… which is fine… but I need to get this out to better understand my situation I guess.

I tried ending things with my bisexual man who has a boyfriend. I spend 2 weeks trying to avoid him and ignore his texts, however this becomes difficult when you work together… but the day I tried ending it we ended up spending the day together… and I just felt so much joy I could not get myself to follow through.
We have since had a few nights together which have been amazing. The last night we had together we went crazy carpeting at 2 in the morning, we walked to a hill where you could see the whole view of the city, we made snow angels and played like little kids in the snow. I felt like I was a young child, I can’t remember the last time I had felt so much bliss. After that we went to a restaurant with one of those stuffed animal machines with the claw… he played forever just to win me the penguin I wanted.

He recently told me he has fallen in love with me… he said he loved me… and that he couldn’t stop. But he also loves his boyfriend…

I know this all sounds so silly, but I can’t help but feel like I am falling in love with him.

The other problem with this, his boyfriend has recently asked him if he is having an affair with me. His boyfriend also works with us, and I am sure he can probably see the connection we have. Obviously, my bisexual man denied anything was going on between us. Since he was confronted, he has let me know that he still wants to see me, because he loves spending time with me, but that we need to be more careful. The biggest reason his bf was curious about us was because the amount of time we spend texting… and I guess my bisexual man would always delete the texts (which would make anyone wonder)

Since then… I feel like I never know when I can or cannot text him… like the ball is always in his court. I always wonder when the next time we are going to be together is. And I know this is all ridiculous but I miss him so much all the time. I feel like I am going borderline crazy…

Usually I only get to see him once on the weekend outside of work.. Sometimes we even go 2 weeks without seeing eachother.

I don’t know what to do… im to scared that if I tell him I want to spend more time with him that it will push him away…

But I want more time…

So confused with this situation I have gotten myself in to…
breakandenteronmyheart breakandenteronmyheart
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1 Response Nov 30, 2012

...wow....this sounds like a story

sometimes I wish it was just a story and not my real life... because i am confused as ever... I wish there was a way to stop caring about someone. The connection we share is just so strong... i havent known him very long... but I feel like I have..because it is just so comfertable... I can tell him anything.