Update....4months 1day Break Up And Now ThisI have now been with my married man for 4 months. I have falling deeply in love with him (I royally f***ed up with that. totally lost control) and want to do anything to make him happy. To just see him smile, to recieve a text from him and to know he his nearby makes my whole day worthwhile.
But...... Not so long ago he told me some bad news. His dad had been told that he had terminal cancer. He has kept me up to date on everything up till saturday where he told me his dad had deteriorated badly. He died sunday. I sent a text to let him know that I am here if he needs someone to talk to or even scream at. Being the other woman is difficult because i can't run to him and comfort him like i truly want to. I know he will be with his family and I understand fully, and truly respect that. The hard part is waiting and hoping he can see me as someone to talk to. Someone he can trust enough to open his heart to. To see me as more than his paramour. I can't call him to speak and ask how he is feeling. I feel like I'm grieving to, which is rather selfish of me. I as the other woman have no-one to talk with, so no-one can understand why I am feeling down. I hope we can overcome this tragic event and he sees that he can talk to me or take comfort from me. As I will be there whenever he needs me. If he wanted to stand strong, I would stand right next to him and if he wanted to lay down in pain, I would lay down right next to him untill he could stand again.
helena09 31-35, F 6 Responses 1 Dec 11, 2012