Just Typical Of My Addiction To This Toxic SituationSo as I have done for 4 years, i disappear when things are going good and I get wrapped up in the tangle web of broken promises and empty words. I passed my cut off date, and all because after his accident he begged m to ot leave and he was positive what he wanted now and was gonna put things in motion. That was now 2 months ago again...and this is how it can go on for years and years. I am truly amazed, he knows just what to say and do to get me to cave, and I am just disgusted in myself. The holidays were just devastating, after Christmas which he spent with his family I told him I was giving him the benefit of the doubt and I would not stay a day past March 1st. That gives him 2 solid months to make a plan and show me with his actions this time. In my heart I know he will not leave, he hasnt even looked at one apartment and its mid january already, I am setting myself up for disaster but i dont know how else to do it. I hate this, I hate what this has done to me as a woman and I have never been so torn. Things have slowly gine downhill again, he went back to work after christmas and suddenly the attention and solid promises that he made have diminished...i said it 100 times it feels like there is no way out.
meshka0304 36-40, F 2 Responses 0 Jan 10, 2013