I met this man with striking blue eyes when I went out to a coffee shop about a year ago. I caught him staring and I hid a smile. He walked up and say down next to me and let's just say we hit it off. We had the same sense of humor the same likes and oddly enough the same dislikes we even finished each other's sentences. We exchanged emails and numbers and went on our way back to our lives. He never rushed me, we went on so many dates I can't remember but the weird thing is I do remember every single detail. After three months we finally made love and it felt so right. Just to have him hug me sent sparks through me. His eyes melted my soul. He always had excuses why I couldn't go to his house and after a while I thought it was very odd. He was an instructor pilot and worked long hours many times very late. But I stayed up with him emailing and texting. I was very much in love I was smiling every day and everyone noticed. I told my family about him. He drove a nice car and was successful. I am a med student and I guess you can say successful. I never thought too much of myself and school takes up all my time so I never looked for a man. Then the worst day of my life happened. I received an email from my babe, but it wasn't him, it was an angry and bitter wife. I was called everything in the book and told I ruined the lives of four children. Four children I never knew existed. In fact, he was telling me he wanted me to have his child as my first. We were actually trying. I didn't respond to her I was so shaken. I'm very reserved and didn't know what to say. It took a while for the email to sink in and when it did, it hit me like a brick wall. He tested me almost immediately after saying someone hacked his email. No, she sent family pictures to show me the lives I ruined. But I didn't know. I'm so hurt but I love him still. I can't deny these feelings anymore. How did he see me for all this time? How could he hold my hand and tell me he loved me and that I was his soul mate and go home and live a completely different life than I thought. How mean how cruel . He tells me he's leaving her but I wouldn't want him to come to me after. I can't be the reason for the divorce I couldn't stand the thought of that. I'm miserable I can't sleep I can't eat I can't do anything anymore. She's harassing me non
stop all the while he's right there trying to console me. He comes to my house every day with flowers I never open the door I'm dying inside I need someone to tell me from experience. God I love this man what if we did conceive a child? That's all I can think about, what if.