Could Use A Little Help Today
I have been seeing a MM for about 6-7 months. He is dominating, aggressive etc...opposite of my husband. My husband is the best really. He loves me and my girls and is an outstanding man. I have no idea why this other man has captured my attention. The MM and I have been physical but not had sex. I am continously trying to break it off but I just don't seem to have the strength. What little time I do get with him is exhilirating. But then the valley's of anxiety and loneliness always follow. I know this is going to end badly. I feel your story and I am searching for the strength to do the right thing. Today I saw a post of facebook where he and his wife exchanged "I love you's" and it stung awful. We have both made it very clear that we aren't breaking up any families and that this is just for fun on the side but I am developing feelings. Deep feelings that are distracting and dangerous. I know what I need to do but I can't yet. I hate that I am settling for "bread crumbs" of his time. Yes, he has strayed before but this is my first time. Married 7 years, 2 little children....Even typing this out makes me sick. How do I get over this? How do I move on? He will not pursue me if I decide to leave so this should be easy right? I just can't seem to stop texting him or looking at his facebook profile. I'm so deflated.