He Is Back From NYC...

Oh trust me, this is done, I'm just amused, really.

If he makes some sort of advance or says anything in the way of us I will enjoy blowing him off!

ohhh enjoy that! I'm so happy for you. Good Luck, keep it up.

Ah dammit I don't want to think that way! You called me out, I still love him and no I don't want it to end, however, I want off the rollercoaster. I want to stop being his side dish. If he wants to fix his marriage I love him enough to let him go. If he decides he wants me later then I'll see how I feel about it then. I am NOT holding my breath.

I wish I could like this response a million times.

I know. I really hate it that she is right. :(

oh sweetie! I feel your pain. I didn't even have sex with my MM and it hurts me to have let him go this morning. Please think about your sanity. I plan to get some real sleep over these next few days. I can't wait for time to pass so I feel less anxious and don't think as much about him. I'm here anytime!

Thank you thank you! I'm not sure how I'll handle this. Since we sit across the wall from each other we have been talking when we haven't been IMing. It's just about normal stuff, movies, coworkers, etc. I'm not sure how to handle this yet but I'm rolling with it.

Yes! Exactly how I think of it. Just getting off the rollercoaster ride. What will be will be.

Oh, please keep posting. I'm in a similar situation. I work with him, luckily not at the same location anymore. I broke it off this past weekend. He still IM's and emails about work stuff to reach out. I've kept it pretty casual. Not sure how this will work out but I'm numb enough to handle it right now. Well, numb or in pain.

Day 2- He left me another note. He worked late last night so he put it on my desk for me to find this morning. It was sweet but I haven't acknowledged it yet. My friends saw it and got upset because they are afraid it will upset me more. They love him too, because we are all in the same social group, but they know how much this has hurt me. They know as well as I do that he just gets to pick back up with his old life. They are very protective of me.

And Sweetness, I'm still trying to get there.

Oh and by the way the note on the board by the breakroom is still there.

It's a great thing you have support all around you.
Use it.
Make plans a week ahead for lunch...
Assign people to come and interrupt when he drops by at your desk for a visit, and try not to give him ANY physical relief.
Stay very sweet and nice, while crawling out of your skin.., but DO NOT touch him.
'THERE IS NO CHANGE, WITHOUT CHANGE".
At tis point you have nothing to loose. As you said, you will remain good friends.

Either this will work and he will leave his marriage and be with you OR he will appreciate what you're doing for him as a loving friend and stay with wifey.

TRY IT for two days and report what results you see...
Be strong if you REALLY want him xo

That's exactly what I needed to hear right now! Really! I can do that, I can be sweet while crawling out of my skin. I have done it before when we were trying to end it where I was screaming inside my head but I was smiling to his face. I wasn't ready then and had no intentions of sticking to it. I am ready now. Well, I'm as ready as I'm going to get. I will not see him again until Monday because he switched his schedule to work this weekend instead. That will mean four days in a row of not seeing him.

I got an email from him this morning to my personal account. It was just a funny picture, no written words. I responded in kind with a funny picture I was going to send him, also no words accompanying it. I can see that he is online at home but I haven't been at work long so I haven't gotten any IMs or anything.

It's sad, I do still love him and still want him, but again, I love him enough to want him to be happy. I never intended to rip apart his life, and I never ever wanted to take down innocent people. That's not who I've ever been. It's just a cruel twist of fate that when I meet the love of my life he is married. sigh.......