My mind keeps telling me that I've done the right thing by letting him go, but my heart is not so sure.

I sit here thinking how he'd make me feel when he'd say hi or even smile at me I'd know that even if it was for a moment, I'd crossed his mind.

In a perfect world, when he was with her, he'd be wishing he was with me; when he looked at her, his eyes would see me; when he smiled at her, his smile would be for me, and when he was thinking of someone, he'd be thinking of me. In a perfect world, he'd soon realise that she wasn't the one that he was meant to be with and I'd still be here waiting for him when he finally realised this.

Yet again this isn't a perfect world, and people do get hurt. I smile when I want to cry; act like I'm ok when it hurts to do so because I miss him so much.

Sometimes I wish I'd never met him, because then I know that I could have gone on not knowing there was someone like him out there.

The worst for me though is that even now, I still find myself thinking of what might have been and I still find myself loving someone who used to love me......
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1 Response Aug 20, 2014

I am so with you, sat today talking with mine. My heart hurt the whole time.