I Know . . . Too Good to Stop

Thinking only about myself, it's too good to stop and I don't want to.  I don't want others to know, there's no point in that.

I said No for 17+ yrs.  Then one day the earth shifted, my yes rec'd a quick response and full-throttle ahead.  There are no "ILU", just I L F...ing U, and we both do. 

Deep down, this is not what I want.  I don't like the MM part and wish with all my heart that was different.  Sneaking around isn't for me.  But I've discovered that I have no interest in anyone else, for now.  Nine of the greatest months of my life and I do not intend to stop.  May have to, but I'm "big girl" enough to walk away, no regrets.

What bothers me is that someone else will be hurt.  Pretty sure W#2 was OW also.  Ha, her tight reign doesn't slow him down. 

Yea, we get what we settle for, or less.  There are only sexual fantasy here, no change my life and take me away.  Just good sex!

Day69 Day69
46-50, F
1 Response Mar 21, 2009

Your comments make me sad. Pretty close to home. I truly tried to manage my emotions, telling myself the sex is great, he is fun, I can deal with this, take it for what it's worth... now a year later, my heart is broken and I struggle to get through the day not feeling used and tossed aside. My problem maybe, he loved me and I loved him, but..... <br />
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Something to consider.....