Until we meet again, ladies!
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For a variety of reasons, I have not been online much (mostly due to a almost dead laptop, a desktop that had problems connecting to the internet, and life in general).
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I went through all of my stories to see when I joined here. I joined the "I Live in a Sexless Marriage" group of December 2012. I lurked on this board until about the Fall of 2014. I had hoped to find my first post and that it would contain something brilliant to share, but... IDK, EP keeps reordering and filtering out my posts. They're there, then they're not. I don't feel like fussing with it at the moment.
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I didn't post many stories. But I valued you. I valued you for wearing your hearts on your sleeves, your vulnerability, your honesty and realness.
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I have always said that affairs are not a one-size fits all scenario. I will always believe that, and stand by it. ((There's proof. If you need to see it, read the book, "When Good People Have Affairs."))
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There are many kinds of women who have affairs for many different reasons. They are your mothers, your sisters, your best friends, your daughters, your colleagues, your neighbours, your store clerks, your manager at work, women in your congregation, a teacher at your school, and so on. They are HUMAN beings who are trying to figure out *their* way in life.
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Maybe some of us don't go about it the way you think we should. But for the most part, we are good people who are trying our best to navigate the challenges we don't always have the experience or knowledge to deal with.
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At least that's how I found myself in the position of being the "other" woman to the "other" man.
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I had hoped to alleviate the sexlessmess my marriage was in. The profound depression. And the gargantuan desire to remember what it was like to kiss passionately. I thought a FWB would do the trick.
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If only it were that easy.
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I immediately knew my marriage was dead. But I was still stuck. ((Soon I will be employed, and my exit strategy executed!))
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There are a great number of people on EP who helped me along. Many of them here, whose stories and wisdom I always looked forward to (Koko, HisChelsea, iunderstand, boudoirwhispers, Jazz, to name a few... and I know I'm forgetting others). Some of them were on the ILIASM thread (HarveySpecter, Bazaar, Enna, LaoTsu, Sleeplessknight, and many others I'm forgetting too). YOUR stories have been inspirational, heartbreaking, exhilarating, and on and on.
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THANK YOU from the deepest parts of my heart and soul. THANK YOU for teaching me.
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"The capacity that people have to love... Where does it go?" -- Truly, Madly, Deeply
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One last thought: my name, TrulyMadlyDeeply, comes from the title of one of my most favourite British films. And dear, dear, dear Alan Rickman, with whom I fell in love instantly. Brilliant film that stayed with me from my young adult years to now. I held on to the fact that true, passionate love MUST exist. Otherwise, what's the point?
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I have a cherished AP (affair partner) with whom I am truly, madly and very deeply in love. He makes me smile. And he has shown me that love is possible.
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From here? Many of my stories will be deleted. I'll save my favourite ones. And who knows where my life will take me?But it is brighter now, and I am full with love in my life.
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To you, with love and peace, TrulyMadlyDeeply38

TrulyMadlyDeeply38 TrulyMadlyDeeply38
41-45, F
5 Responses Apr 19, 2016

Best wishes to you!

You too!

Be well, Truly. Until we meet again. *Insert heart here*

And may hearts to you, Ms BW.

Beautiful words, made me tear up. May your life be filled with lots of light and plenty of love ❤️❤️

You too, CBL.

Best wishes TMD. Thanks for sharing your experience. xoxo

You too, unjusted. I was absent for the peak of your time here, but learned so much from your grace, your being. Thank you.

Your posts we helpful to me on my journey, TMD, especially the bed song. Hope you keep that story.

Yes. That one stays.

Thank you, SK. Your posts have been equally helpful.