I Am The Scum Of The Earth

I am the scum of the earth I must be married for 38 years ex leaves for a woman knew for 6 weeks 40 years ago . I must be the worst thing that God ever-put on this earth Ex tell me not to make every thing about money. But he paid to have her teeth fixed and bought her a ring even before we were divorced. He is deducting from my alimony for the cell phone . but she lives with him and can go out and work ( I am disabled and cannot hold a job) and he pays the cell phone, house payment , utilities , her health care , care insurance, food and takes her on vacations and is helping pay for her daughters wedding.