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Really Missing My Soldier


I am really really really missing my soldier right now......
I  met Patrick when I was 18 or had just turned 19, he became my best friend, & I silently was falling in love with him, life took us in different directions for almost 5 years and then through a strange course of events brought us back together when he was home on his 2 week R&R leave. During that time I was moving to a different state & didn't have a lot of time to physically spend with him but we were constantly on the phone, & I got to spend 3 days with him right before he left. At first I wanted to take things slow because I was just going through a divorce, but I realized that you can't tell your heart what to do, it somehow knows whats right, anyhow, by the time he left I was so head over heels I was like a love sick puppy. Now it's been 2 months since he left to go back to finish his deployment so I have to wait another 4 to 6 months until I see him again, and I miss him so much. We know that sometime after his deployment we want to get married, originally he wanted to when he finished his deployment because he will be here in the states for a 30 day leave & then he will have to go back to Italy (he is stationed in Italy until his PCS at the end of 2011) & he wanted me to go back to Italy with him, at first I wasn't so keen on the idea & I am still not sure about that, but then we set a date for Sept 2011 only to find out that my brother & his fiance had already set a date for that same weekend, so now we are waiting until his deployment is over to set a date. I love him so much, I would do anything to be able to see him right now even if it was just for a minute. We were talking on the phone every day but after almost $8,000 in cell phone bills he has stopped calling me everyday. He called me today for literally 1 min to tell me that he loves me, before that I hadn't talked to him in 3 days. the times when I don't get to talk to him makes me miss him that much more, & makes it so hard. And the fact that I am 500 miles away from all of my friends & family makes it harder too.

Any advice to make the time pass by faster or to make it a little easier is much appreciated :)
gonnabemrsG gonnabemrsG 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2010

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i completely agree with G, and something i've been doing is a holiday countdown instead of a normal countdown, just checked off my first, halloween, and it just seems to make the time pass much quicker. food for thought(:

what people always told me was to keep busy...and its been working but then there are those weekday nights were i find myself missing my soldier terribly and start crying...well i found something that brings me new comfort (besides from this site) is going on youtube and looking up "guys in afghanistan" and things like that, because the videos that come up are just guys and other soldiers being goffy and playing around and doing weird dances while overseas and it just makes me laugh and brings me relief...idk if its just me but its helped me and it calms me down to see that they do have fun at times and they are ok :)<br />
hope your doing ok<br />
<br />
xoxoG

what people always told me was to keep busy...and its been working but then there are those weekday nights were i find myself missing my soldier terribly and start crying...well i found something that brings me new comfort (besides from this site) is going on youtube and looking up "guys in afghanistan" and things like that, because the videos that come up are just guys and other soldiers being goffy and playing around and doing weird dances while overseas and it just makes me laugh and brings me relief...idk if its just me but its helped me and it calms me down to see that they do have fun at times and they are ok :)<br />
hope your doing ok<br />
<br />
xoxoG