Really Missing My Soldier
I am really really really missing my soldier right now......
I met Patrick when I was 18 or had just turned 19, he became my best friend, & I silently was falling in love with him, life took us in different directions for almost 5 years and then through a strange course of events brought us back together when he was home on his 2 week R&R leave. During that time I was moving to a different state & didn't have a lot of time to physically spend with him but we were constantly on the phone, & I got to spend 3 days with him right before he left. At first I wanted to take things slow because I was just going through a divorce, but I realized that you can't tell your heart what to do, it somehow knows whats right, anyhow, by the time he left I was so head over heels I was like a love sick puppy. Now it's been 2 months since he left to go back to finish his deployment so I have to wait another 4 to 6 months until I see him again, and I miss him so much. We know that sometime after his deployment we want to get married, originally he wanted to when he finished his deployment because he will be here in the states for a 30 day leave & then he will have to go back to Italy (he is stationed in Italy until his PCS at the end of 2011) & he wanted me to go back to Italy with him, at first I wasn't so keen on the idea & I am still not sure about that, but then we set a date for Sept 2011 only to find out that my brother & his fiance had already set a date for that same weekend, so now we are waiting until his deployment is over to set a date. I love him so much, I would do anything to be able to see him right now even if it was just for a minute. We were talking on the phone every day but after almost $8,000 in cell phone bills he has stopped calling me everyday. He called me today for literally 1 min to tell me that he loves me, before that I hadn't talked to him in 3 days. the times when I don't get to talk to him makes me miss him that much more, & makes it so hard. And the fact that I am 500 miles away from all of my friends & family makes it harder too.
Any advice to make the time pass by faster or to make it a little easier is much appreciated :)