Yup I Too Am In This Night Mare

I know too well after reading your stories this nightmare, my husband is a sex addict, his problem is with these online dating sites and sexting we have been together for 3 years married for a year have 2 beautiful girls together I found out when I was pregnant with our first daughter 2 years ago I found explicit text messages and pics on his phone , I was hurt and confused my world has totally come apart I felt like I was not pretty enough my trust was gone I felt angry and alone this is not a problem you can just talk about..... well time went on I again caught him I even joined a on line group for wives of sex addicts I discontinued the group because I found the support to be not what I needed I dont need to hear " leave him"" its not that easy I do love him very much though the hurt is almost unbearable.. but love keeps me here love keeps me fighting for our marriage, I have played detective its exhausting to play detective . I guess it was my way of not being hurt yet again I have yet again caught him doing his sexting thing even though I have a keylogger on the computer records to his cell phones turns out he just bought another phone, now I am very angry, feel very unappreciated and completely lost after thinking it over I have come to this conclusion, this is his problem I cant fix it he has too I cant control his actions I cant change the past just try to pick up these broken pieces I told him he needs to get help he has agreed to see a addictions counselor I have read there is hope for a marriage that has this problem but both have to work though it, I cant keep taking the blows to my own self worth because of his actions I have to be strong and take this journey see where it goes I hope he loves us enough to get better I hear when the addict gets better the marriage becomes stronger because of it I am going to be hopeful...what else do I have?

ps I also made him read this post
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31-35, F
Dec 9, 2012