I have an idealized image about myself. In my mind I'm a man who plays in a rock band, rides a motorcycle, has a few but true friends, is bisexual or gay and has a male lover whom he's faithful to. My other self is always strong and just. He always does the right thing and never gives up.
The strange thing is I always see him as an only child and I have a brother, I see him living with his father and my father is dead. I guess he has everything I don't.
And usually when I'm depressed I imagine him going through some kind of misfortune. That troubles me the most. When I'm not happy he's even more miserable than me. And when I cry, I cry about him, not me.