Gets Me In Trouble Yet Still Reigns True...

Posting this here as well in case any of my former EP Circle of Friends may remember me...I was a previous member of Experience Project known as "SuperUnknownOne" for several months, and i "met" many chill people here. However, a few months back I decided it was in the best interest of my relationship to leave EP and have no secrets from my girlfriend of several years. Since that time, however, my relationship has nonetheless stagnated (we now live apart after living together for three years., etc.) I'm living alone and trying to figure out if this is "starting my life over, "midlife crisis", or just the lonely result of my inability to control my impulsive and sometimes damaging urges to swim in the deep sensual waters of sexual "contact".....it's probably that last one. So here I am again, not only to "confess" my lusts and desires and shame and fantasies psuedo-anonymously, but to get a feel to see if I'm the only one, which I am sure i cannot be, who is "in love" with someone special but yet lured by the mysterious temptations of forbidden fruits (in this case AKA women and situations of sexual persuasion...). I am a living double-standard of "love", i get that. But here I am again, seeking thoughts of like-minded individuals to help gain perspective on this duality. I think I am just not holding myself accountable enough for my actions. Maybe I'll learn how to do so this time around. That is just where i dwell and wonder right now...
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36-40, M
Sep 24, 2012