I Realized It Now...I realized it now that so many things I had done in the past to try pleasing everyone around me.
Probably because I did not believe in myself. I sought validation from others on what my personality was. I thought I would be a bad person if they said so. Or I would be a better person if they thought of me as good.
I realized all this was wrong. The person I am -- I know that person. I don't need to please people to validate my self.
I am though all that. Done.