I Am So Tierd

I feel like I always have to be strong I can never have a moment that I can just feel I have to be like a statue that everyone crys on now dont get me wrong I dont mind always being there for people but the thing is nobody is ever there for me literally when I have a down day no one picks up the phone and yes I know people have there own lives but if I have time to be there for them why not get it in return? everyone thinks that Im taking my Husbands deployment so easy and Im so collected all I can think is .... ARE YOU KIDDING ME!! sometimes I dont want to get out of bed I feel like I cant breathe its like every breath I take is never nearly deep enough to breathe my heart breaks every morning when I wake up and every night when I go to sleep(which isnt till 4-5 in the morning) Do you know how bad it hurts to have your heart literally break everyday it physically hurts and through all this all I can think is I have to be strong my husband needs to be strong for him, my family and friends need me to be strong for them Im so tierd of always having to be strong I dont know how much more I can take but I keep pushing myself

armywife26 armywife26
22-25, F
9 Responses Feb 10, 2009

I though I was the only one who felt like this. I currently have my lil' sis' suffering from depression, a mom who is a married to a younger and trouble-making husband, and I am the one who need to listen and listen, give counsel and nothing for me. I study law, and I am always really busy... studying, working, practically having no time for myself, I have gained about 20 pounds and can't find the way to get back to how I was. I need to sit and read every day. Deal with all the issues surrounding me and at the same time look as if everything is alright, like I am the strongest, like I am everyone's support. My Best friends moved out of state so I can only communicate via phone o e-mail or a stupid FB poke. When all I really need is a hug and someone to lend me a shoulder to cry, and just get everything out of my system... so I can go on...

its so hard to always be strong cause you have to sometimes the feeling becomes overwhelming but if you need anything im that shoulder you or anyone for that matter can lean on

i know how you feel when everyone expects you to be that way

I will definately keep that in mind. Thanks girl! :)

Thank you so much ladies I appreciate the support and I as well am here if anyone needs a shoulder

That is so true vickigarcia. A good cry once in a while makes me feel so much better :)

WE ALL KNOW and UNDERSTAND that this is hard, and you need to cry and BE WEAK once and a while!!!! Some don't understand that as strong as we are, and as difficult as it is NOT having our soldier at home with us, we cry too!<br />
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You have come to the right place for support girl! This is a great site, and the ladies on here are WONDERFUL!<br />
Cry if you need to, take that extra minute in bed to yourself. Nobody said you NEED to be strong all the time...we're humans too!!!!!!<br />
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We stick together, and you are always welcome to lean on wnyone of us to help you make it through.....to be strong....or to cry with!<br />
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I'm here for ya ANYTIME! I'll even bring the tissue! ;)

Thank you so much!! all of this is so hard and I know Ill get through it but if you ever need anything Im here for you <br />
Thanks again

Ahh it's alright hun. There are so many supportive people on this site. I know how hard this is for you. My boyfriend is in the air force. I'm hurting and we're only apart for now (while he's in tech school). I feel horrible when I'm a little down and feel like I have it so rough. I know there are so many women out there who have it much worse than I do. I can't even imagine having a husband who is deployed but I'm sure that's a situation i'll become oh so familiar with in the near future. I truly admire women like you. I definately know how hard it is to put on a show for everyone because you HAVE to be strong even when you don't feel like you can take it anymore. Keep pushing yourself forward girl. You'll get through this and you will become a stronger woman even if you don't think you are. I'm always here if you want to chat. I'll be a shoulder to lean on. You can always vent to me. There's no reason that you have to feel alone in any of this :)