I made a mistake, like any other human being has, I owned up to it and apologized. Still nothing has changed why? Because those people decide they are to hurt to accept any apology. Ok, that's fine, I understand. But..... why do you have to punish me for something I have apologized for and deeply regret??? Who are you to decide I need to be punished? I'm done, I am taking my sister's advice and holding on to the people who really deserve my love and friendship. I will block my soul from anymore heartache and focus on my surroundings and those special people that are in it. No more dwelling on the past, no more kissing ***, no more feeling sorry for myself, NO MORE!! Keep your punishments, keep your poison and let others live. You will no longer string me along, hurting me! Today I put my foot down and happily move on with my life!