A Slap In The FaceI shared my first experience in this category some time ago, and in that story I mentioned a woman who had the nerve to mention, in the middle of sex, that she might be in love with someone else. Since then, I thought we had worked things out. She even came over last week and stayed the night. However, the next morning, after spending most of the day together, she tells me that she is going to date this other guy! WTF?!!! I am so tired of not trusting anybody, but... COME ON!!!! She said that I am her best friend, and that we've got real chemistry, but she was unhappy... there was an age difference that, while she said it didn't matter, apparently did. Her unhappiness stemmed from the fact that she thought all her other friends and family would reject her, based upon this age gap. So she took the easy road out and just went for the other guy, who was already "approved of" by said friends and family. I just don't know how much more of this **** I can take!
I've learned some things recently that really seem to explain the relationship dynamics. We live in a society that values our individualism, now more than ever. As such, we tend to engage in relationships and marriage because of "romantic love". The problem with that system is that eventually, people will become unhappy and seek new relationships to try and recreate the excitement and passion. So many people are just in it for themselves, and as long as they get what they want, they don't care how many people get hurt in the process. I know that her leaving was better in the long run, but it doesn't change the fact that once again, I'm left on the doorstep, my jaw to the floor, while the thunderstorm gathers and begins to dump on me. Once again, I am alone for reasons that I have no control over. I just don't know if I even want to go on, knowing that this is my future.