I think I fear beong alone more than I fear death. I know its really strange but I equate loneliness with not being loved which I know is not true but that's the picture I have in my mind.
I used to love my time alone but I think as you get older, the reality of this loneliness is harder to bear. Remember hearing a lovely line from a film though "We're all walking alone in life, but in this, we are walking together".
I've been alone for so long that all the feelings I felt of when I had a girlfriend are starting to fade away one of them is love the others are slowly fading I try to keep it together but the only thing that is left is hatred.And the way I let go of my girlfriend is in my head I visualized myself as a vampire and that I killed her in my head that way I was able to let her go and try not to give up on finding another one.
I am lonely as well. I seem to have forgotten how to have friends. I wonder if it's the same with friends as its with love. When you stop seeking they apear. After I have worked through all the emotion I figured out I just need to get out there and find something that I am interested in and with that meet people to make friends with. I think we all feel unloved when we are alone.