I have this deep sense of loneliness inside myself. I've tried to figure out what is missing but I can't. It's like something just left a huge hole in my heart and nothing can fill it. I havent been with anyone since august of last year. Im so sick of being alone but I don't have the self esteem to talk to anyone that im interested in. The last relationship i was in drained me and robbed me of my confidence and trust because it was an abusive relationship. Everytime I try to talk to a guy it's so hard to act natural and not be afraid that i just give up. I wish someone would take an interest in me but that doesn't happen. I guess im going to stay alone for now.