I know I have been gaining a few pounds here and there over the last few years. In 2008 I weighed 180 lbs and loved it. I was hospitalized for heart palputations (sp?) and was put on 3 different meds. It took me awhile to realize the meds were making me gain weight a lot easier than before. Over the last 4 years, I have put on a whopping 140 lbs making my total weight to date 320 lbs clinically obese. Well, my family went on a mini vaca to Kings Island over the weekend and I was surrounded by skinny (average I suppose) people in the water rides and all around. It normally doesn't bother me, but then I went on a few rides with my nephew who means the world to me, standing in line for up to an hour only to be told that I exceeded their weight limit for that ride. I was EXTREMELY embarrassed, mad, disappointed you name it. Not being able to go on a ride with my nephew, he means the world to me and I let him down. I am sick of being fat. I am tired of being tired even though I don't even do anything. Im sick of food, I'm sick of nast looks, I want to be able to swim in a public pool without the nasty looks and comments. Most importantly, I want to be able to play with my nephew!! Please, please I need so much help right now I just need some uplifting and motivational stories which is why I am here. Thank you all for reading my story. Starting today I am on a journey, a journey to save my life, a journey to change who I am forever. No longer will I be another statistic of the obese americans. I want to be..average!