Feeling Fat and Miserable
i don't know how much i weight and i don't want to know. I never used to have a big issue with the way i look till i met my boyfriend of 5 years. I remember the first time he told me my belly was in church one day. Also, his family is working my last nerve. Everytime his mother sees me the first words out of her mouth are "Wow, you are getting fat" or something similar. my boyfriend's whole family is skinny, some of them, including him could pass for anorexic. They believe everyone should look like that.
I am going to dump him within the coming months but not now cause right now my life is empty and really boring. I don't have close friends, my job is only temporary and finding a job in Jamaica is like searching for a needle in a hay stack. Socializing and everything else i should be doing to make myself feel better all take money which i don't have.
I just feel so fat and ugly.