Ever since I was little I have always been fat, not obese... The biggest I've been is a size 16. But I have always been bullied, even by friends before. But more so people whistling or shouting random abuse at me in the street or at college. Because of this I have very low self esteem. If I go out with friends I'm constantly worried someone will shout something at me and embarrass me in front of all my friends. I'm always trying diets and exercise but they never work, then I began to like this boy, and every time I went to eat something fattening I would think of him to stop me eating it. Yesterday I found out he has a girlfriend, and today I feel constantly sick, every time I look or even think about food it comes up in my throat.