Tired of My Life

I have no feelings. Sinse I am on thyroid medication, my emotions are more under control so I do not go in crying spells anymore, but the other side of it is that I am just drugging along. I am married to a man who does not want to have more children and I have only one and would like have more or adopt, but he refuses. I am tired of him being bitter and teaching my child to be like him, bitter and unhappy. I do not remember myself when I laughed last time.

My book that I spent 5 years to write is still being rejected, I lost my both part-time jobs and my daycare business is still not functioning and we have no children. It feels that everything I do goes down the tubes. And I have no friends. My husband hated my only friend I had and hated her for no reason. Now I do not have any friends to talk, I am lucky to have a sister and mom. I do not know what happiness is or I do not believe I will ever be. I am just drugging along the path of life, sorry for being so gloom

svetvalret svetvalret
36-40, F
Feb 24, 2009