I Dont Know How to Be Alone

I am depressed I know that I understand that but its not about my current life troubles its about the fact I dont know how to ba by myself

 

for 12 years now its always been she and I and for the time we were apart I had family and friends her addiction cost me any social interactions without embarassment

 

I dont live at home I got my own place im fine at work but it feels so superficial

 

I just feel empty I dont get to spend any time with my daughter I wake her up to send her to daycare she comes home in time to go to bed

 

I just cant breath in this skin anymore these walls are looking down on me

 

I think for the first time I can understand addiction the momentary escape from this fear of not bieng seen sounds tempting no drug in particular just something to keep me from seeing that no one notices me

 

I am feeling so insecure

blindexplorer blindexplorer
26-30, M
2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

That's why they call it "a battle".....because even when you're weary, like now, you have to keep going against the easy way of behaving.<br />
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Remind yourself what your initial goal is. You will not get there if you give up mid-way! Keep pushing! Just a little more....

hey<br />
hold on to life.... <br />
don't give up...... bad times don't last forever. They take ages at times to ebb away. but they do go. <br />
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I want you to be strong and to fight back. <br />
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Take care